i have this tenacious feeling of wanting to be beaten. there's a profound internal emptiness and numbness that has eroded my being. self harm is no longer enough, i need to feel pain from an external source.
unpleasantly me
i have this tenacious feeling of wanting to be beaten. there's a profound internal emptiness and numbness that has eroded my being. self harm is no longer enough, i need to feel pain from an external source.
he doesn't care if i live or die, but i only care about pleasing him. i want him to feel good no matter what. my body is his to use and fill. i won't let my sadness get in the way of being his doll.